Monday, June 21, 2010

One week later..

I really hate the freaking treadmill. Feels too much like life right now, going and going and not getting anywhere. So, yoga, meditation and my little athletic games are going to have to suffice for now. Can't do something that is only going to make me hate it more and lead me to fail.

I have lost about 7 pounds this week, mostly from changing the diet.. some exercise, digging in the garden for several hours this week and bouncing around to build up the heart rate. I have incorporated some little things that help me keep moving too. Leg lifts and hula swirls while waiting for the coffee to brew, tricep and shoulder shrugs during world cup matches... crap like that. I still hate exercise. I would much rather be on my feet, moving around a kitchen, hefting heavy pans and pots of soup around for 12 hours...funny how that doesn't equate to exercise. I wore a pedometer once to work and discovered that I cover almost a marathon in a week with the amount of steps I take.

So, I quit snacking. No more food after 7pm and lots of water... keeps the body flushed out. I do snack.. I can't lie about it.. just not after 7pm and I keep it to a minimum. 2 potato chips, 3 or 4 'nilla wafers, but not sitting down with the whole box or bag. I actually tossed out 1/4 of a chocolate beet cake I made 2 weeks ago. Crazy throwing away food! I am not going to do that again. I will cut it up in small pieces and freeze it next time. Let the other people who live here eat it.

Oh my gosh too... Steven is losing weight. Granted he has IBS and it has been giving him lots of trouble too. But, he's lost like 15 pounds since Christmas. It is not fair how men can just shed it so fast from little changes.
Says he'll start exercising once he reaches a certain weight. Yea, we'll see about that.

So, what have I been eating? Well, last week was mostly to get me to quit snacking.. which I am committed to. This week is diet changing... so, tonight we will have fish with a big salad. Big salad... lots of them, one with lunch and dinner.. fill up on that so I don't eat all the starch and carbs. Going for the plant based diet with some meat and cheeses. Cutting out sugars is the goal... we will work on changing fats later. Anyhow, that is basically it for now.. going to get off the computer and quitmahbitchin'. Go outside and play for an hour. Weeeeeeeeee!

Sunday, June 13, 2010

First Sunday

Today is the first day of the new beginning.
Going to eat better, get some exercise and start on the road to changing all my bad habits.
I really don't want to have a heart attack, or a stroke, or end up with diabetes and lose a limb. I don't want what happened to my Grandma Altieri to happen to me. So, we must change.

I don't know what I am going to do to exercise. I hate the treadmill. I like gardening and yoga. But those aren't going to get my heart rate up and blast the plaque from my arteries. And sex is out too. I am too easy to get going and have a short fuse... in other words, it doesn't last long enough to break a good sweat. Trust me when I tell ya, it's not him. I like the work outs I would subject on the girls in softball. The stretching, jumping, running, throwing... leg scissors, sit-ups, push ups. I just have to commit to it and do it. I actually hate most exercise... except swimming. And since I don't have access to a private pool... that is out. It's all excuses really. Just me not wanting to do anything.

Okay, well... coffee, yogurt, granola and raisin toast amounted to almost half my calories for the day. I am not going to skip breakfast ever again as long as I live...okay, that maybe a stretch, but I am going to really try. I am also going to try to be a better less bitter and angry person. I need a mitt and a ball and a block wall. (sigh) that would be exercise I could stand more than 20 minutes. Okay Okay, getting off the computer. Going to go outside and play for a while... Let's see what I come up with.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Can feel it...


Here it is, a year later and I still haven't found anyone who wants me. I end up being second best for almost every job I have had an interview for... just haven't quite pulled it off yet.
Then there is the fact that everyone in CA thinks they can hire and Exec. Chef for less than 45K per year and have them kill themselves for it. Not to say I don't want to work hard, but I want to be paid for my time, experience and talent. Is that too much to ask?

I don't want to stay in California anymore anyhow. People are too rude, too impersonal, self involved, can't drive for shit and really don't give a crap about anything but their little worlds. So Cal is worse, but the Central Valley is almost as bad. Still love love love SF. Don't think I will ever stop loving that City. Miss Houston like mad! Crazy that I miss Texass. Certainly do not miss the heat.

So, where do I want to go? The Mid-West-- the heart of the nation, Iowa. Nebraska, Arkansas, Oklahoma, Missouri, Illinois, Indiana, Ohio, Wisconsin, Minnesota, where it snows in the winter and there are tornadoes in the summer. I can make less money there and it will go further. 

Anyhow, I have been baking. Made a sick chocolate cake with beets this last week. I can't wait to taste it. OH, and saw this thing on CBS news about how your body may be telling you things about itself.... I have 2 things on the list, the ear lobe crease (sign of heart attack risk) and small yellow bumps around the eyes (fatty deposits signs of high cholesterol).  I feel like shit. So, today I decided that I really need to do something. I am. I need to stop this relentless complaining about my life, need to move forward with something else other than just waiting. I have been on hold long enough. It's depression, I KNOW... but only I can DO something.
So, taste the cake, don't eat the whole thing. Get up and MOVE damit! I know. I am sitting here writing and complaining, but that's what I am saying... no more. I HAVE to begin treating my body better, Steven can't take care of himself... and I don't want to leave this earth prematurely. I would like to live at least til I am 80. Which means, I have half of it left... better make it worth it. So, from here... progression and more blogging about the progression. maybe some recipes and pics... but damnit.. get up and move!
Talk later... this is just for me anyhow.